i have a crush

a big one. the kind that makes you excited about the future. the kind that gives you a good feeling all over, and you're not forcing anything. it hasn't been easy. but i decided to stick to it even when it seemed clear it was going nowhere.

anyways, after a few setbacks and disappointments, i found a bit of light at the end of the tunnel- giving me a huge sigh of relief- i knew my intuition hadn't gotten shotty! nothing is set in stone and it's advancing at a snail's pace but i just have too good a feeling about this guy and i feel like exceptions need to be made in his case.

friendships have gotten a lot better too in the last couple months, making montreal seem rosy again.

i also bit the bullet and started watching grey's anatomy. i couldn't help it- it's like chicken noodle soup only without all the excess sodium. i assumed it would be shitty dumbed down trying to be clever crap, and it still sort of is, but a couple of episodes bring out the tearsit', and i'm a cancer so naturally i love it. it's regular tv season now too so i don't have to hide my obsession as much.
tv watching parties become the social norm as soon as it gets colder. which it's not. getting colder i mean. tomorrow it's supposed to go up to 31 degrees, not including humidex.

the radical change in temperature took it's toll on my lungs and i'm having trouble breathing. i didn't go to work today because it got so bad. which conveniently brings me back to the phonecall i had with my crush this evening. when i told him i wouldn't have a doctor's appointment until october 21st and that i was too stubborn to wait in a hospital for 4 hours to get a puffer he offered to take me to the pharmacy to take one of his refills. how sweet is that?